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I'm tired of being spammed
(by Im Just FINE on August-12-2008 04:34:12 PM)1 Comments
I've had a lot of comments on my blog by a person who hates AA/Al-Anon. He loads up the comments area with repetitive crazy messages. I had hoped to not go to comment moderation ...more
The Wreckage of My Past
(by Jinx on August-11-2008 09:02:11 AM)2 Comments
The last two meeting I've attended have had the same topic - the wreckage of our past. As I strive to go forward, I am often pulled back to "those times" when I did so much d...more
There, but for the grace of whomever...
(by Bill on August-6-2008 05:14:06 PM)0 Comments
I don’t spend much time regretting the past. There are a lot of things I’ve done that—given the opportunity—I’d probably do differently, (or not at all,) but yo...more
The Man I Never Met
(by Bill on July-31-2008 06:56:31 PM)0 Comments
Great sharing from the AA Grapevine
Somebody special came my way a long time ago and I'm now realizing, again, how special he was. I had noticed him several times before, but on this part...more
When the 12 steps just aren't enough
(by Jinx on July-27-2008 12:57:27 PM)0 Comments
I go to several meetings a week. I need them. I always get something to take with me when I go. But lately I've been pulled in a different direction and am really enjoying my doi...more
Waiting
(by Jinx on July-24-2008 09:48:24 PM)0 Comments
It feels like I'm just sitting here waiting for something to happen. What that something is, I don't know, but I've been in a holding pattern for a while now and can't seem to allow or...more
yuck.
(by soularsister on July-24-2008 08:34:24 PM)0 Comments
So, its a rough day for me. i'm supposed to leave for a conference tomorrow at 5 a.m., but i'm not feeling it. I"m supposed to market a product and network and shine, but i'm in a funky...more
Anger - Where Are You?
(by Jinx on July-11-2008 08:55:11 PM)1 Comments
Just got back from a meeting where the topic was anger. I can't seem to find mine these days. I feel a little sad, a little disappointed, a little disrespected, but where is the ...more
Email Addresses for Sharing
(by Bill on July-10-2008 01:45:10 PM)2 Comments
Sometimes we're a little bit nervous about posting to sites like this because of anonymity or privacy issues. That's perfectly understandable, and pretty smart. No one wants to g...more
Another lonely night
(by Site Mama on July-8-2008 09:55:08 PM)0 Comments
I've been keeping my computer on the pillow next to me, just in case someone needs someone to talk to during the night. Go to "Community" and then to "Chat Groups" ...more
Unconscious Plagiarism
(by Bill on July-6-2008 10:51:06 AM)1 Comments
Funny thing this morning. I woke up with partial lyrics for a cute song running through my head, so I grabbed the fake Moleskine ($7 at Targét, v. $14 for the “real” t...more
Good Fireworks!
(by Jinx on July-4-2008 09:24:04 PM)0 Comments
Just got back from a meeting where the top was what independence means to them. What a powerful meeting. I have realized - don't know when it happend - that I am independent from...more
PONDER THIS
(by Site Mama on July-2-2008 11:58:02 AM)0 Comments
Some marvelous words by Dag Hammarskjold to keep in your heart today.
God does not die on the day when we cease to believe in a personal deity, but we die on the day when our lives cease to...more
Gratitude Lists
(by Bill on June-30-2008 12:39:30 PM)0 Comments
I just looked over a dozen or so recovery blogs, and at least half of them were basically gratitude lists — and photos. (Apparently drunks take a lot of pictures; I know I do. I just d...more
I'm tired
(by Jinx on June-28-2008 01:30:28 PM)2 Comments
of whiny alcoholics and addicts who still think the whole world revolves around them. I'm tired of being there to listen, being there to help another suffering alcoholic/addict, ...more
Recovery Now -- a new (Christian) recovery podcast
(by DZ on June-28-2008 01:09:28 PM)0 Comments
Not my particular cup of tea but, should it work for you, I believe it begins next week.
http://www.alcoholism-support.org/recovery-now.html...more
Any Bad Dreams Lately?
(by Site Mama on June-27-2008 01:23:27 PM)0 Comments
I recently had a dream where I was drinking a glass of red wine. I can still see the shape of the glass, I can actually smell the rich redness of the grape and the taste still lingers ...more
Come Saturday Morning....
(by Jinx on June-21-2008 07:39:21 AM)0 Comments
If you know that song, you're my age...Ha! Here I am on a Saturday morning, in my nightie, coffee mug to my left and ashtray to my right (no comments, please) writing on a recovery web...more
What a difference a day makes -
(by Jinx on June-18-2008 01:22:18 PM)1 Comments
Feeling really good today. The weather is gorgeous, I haven't killed my kid, my co-worker is trying to push my buttons and I'm not letting it happen - am in a place of gratitude. ...more
Meditating Through Recovery
(by Jinx on June-17-2008 09:17:17 PM)0 Comments
Every Tuesday night I attend a meditation group. There is 40 minutes of minimally guided meditation, following by a "dharma" talk or, in westerner's terms, a talk on some for...more
180° Still Leaves Us In The Rut
(by Bill on June-16-2008 01:44:16 PM)0 Comments
I'm frequently amused by the way atheists seem to feel compelled to straighten out all the believers. Seldom does one run acros...more
Earth People
(by Bill on June-15-2008 12:15:15 AM)0 Comments
An appreciative client just came by and dropped off a 750 of 12-year-old single malt whiskey. I gave it to a co-worker who drinks, and my biggest problem was choosing who to give it to.
A...more
Hot weather
(by lkrubner on June-9-2008 05:58:09 PM)4 Comments
The sun rained down like artillery today. I could hardly believe how hot is was. I've been trying to go running every day, but there was just no way to do it in this heat. ...more
Well, I started another fuss at a meeting...
(by Bill on June-7-2008 12:29:07 PM)0 Comments
I have no problem identifying myself as an alcoholic, an addict, a codependent or, for that matter, just about any other kind of user. I'm an equal opportunity enjoyer -- or used to be My ...more
KUDOS TO MY SPONSOR
(by Jinx on June-6-2008 11:21:06 AM)2 Comments
My sponsor just got an essay published in a very important magazine. Not bad for someone in relatively (that term is negotiable) sobriety. When I picked her as a sponsor, I didn'...more
Spiritual and Religious Practice
(by Bill on June-4-2008 07:57:04 PM)1 Comments
I believe that there are certain differences between spirituality and religion. For example, religion involves belief in salvation: purification in some manner, and then admission to a bet...more
Thunder Storms and Old Dogs
(by Jinx on June-4-2008 02:35:04 PM)0 Comments
Last night I hardly got any sleep. My dogs are old and there was a horrific thunderstorm where I live. They shivered, panted, drooled and could not be comforted, even with their ...more
Epiphany
(by zubenubi on June-2-2008 01:47:02 PM)0 Comments
Last night, I realized that religion is a lot like marriage. It is a practice in continual unconditional love and acceptance. Of yourself, of others, of the religion that is prac...more
Oh, so churchy!
(by zubenubi on June-2-2008 01:47:02 PM)1 Comments
So, I decided to go to Catholic Mass today. I'm not Catholic, nor Christian, nor have I ever been christened or baptised, but these things are still very dear to me. I consider m...more
Today
(by Meg on May-29-2008 09:33:29 AM)1 Comments
It's our last day in our apartment! There are boxes everywhere and it's making me feel claustrophobic, but also relieved because the boxes are proof that we finally are going to move in...more
Is Everyone Addicted?
(by Jinx on May-27-2008 03:26:27 PM)0 Comments
Seems like everywhere I turn these days, someone is using, talking about using or trying not to use. Sometimes I feel like the whole world is one big drug addict - sometimes I think addicti...more
Is Everyone Addicted?
(by Jinx on May-27-2008 03:24:27 PM)0 Comments
Seems like everywhere I turn these days, someone is using, talking about using or trying not to use. Sometimes I feel like the whole world is one big drug addict - sometimes I think addicti...more
I said "no" to a prescription for vicodin
(by Jinx on May-22-2008 09:08:22 PM)1 Comments
Went to the dentist today for a root canal. At the end of the procedure he said I would be in pretty bad pain when the novocaine wore off and that he was going to write me a prescription. ...more
Wandering Minds
(by WhatWinnersDo on May-20-2008 08:30:20 AM)2 Comments
Sometimes I get aggravated with the amount of time my brain goes to thinking about the past. I'm not talking about sweet memories that I'm reminiscing about. I'm talking about me thinking ab...more
Some days are better than others
(by Jinx on May-19-2008 08:49:19 PM)1 Comments
Ya know, it's so much easier for me to be grateful these days. Even when things are going bad - my boyfriend went out again this week-end, I have had a couple really good days, just taking ...more
How'do.
(by Aviatrixt on May-18-2008 06:58:18 PM)3 Comments
I'm so thrilled to have found this webpage. I have struggled with issues of addiction since my teens, and walked into my first AA meeting nearly a year ago. I've been in and out of the roo...more
Who Says TV Can't Teach You Anything
(by WhatWinnersDo on May-16-2008 10:04:16 AM)3 Comments
Because I'm a recovering addict I have to deal with my overbearing urge for instant gratification.
Addicts are not the only ones faced with this problem. In this day and age everyone exp...more
Tonight and Going Green
(by mshore on May-12-2008 09:49:12 PM)2 Comments
Tonight, my father, whose an environmentalist (i love how non-specific that term has become), invited me to join him at dinner with the President of Natural Resources Defense Council. I ment...more
Ride It Out
(by WhatWinnersDo on May-6-2008 10:02:06 AM)1 Comments
In the beginning of recovery it seems that the cravings to use can be so powerful they can nearly drive you crazy. They can hit out of nowhere and take over your brain.
You need to ride i...more
Monday Women's Big Book Study
(by Klue on May-5-2008 11:45:05 AM)0 Comments
Meeting my sponsor 2 hours b4 meeting to get aquainted. I hour to go over reading assignment from last weeks BBStudy...more
Epiphanies
(by WhatWinnersDo on May-4-2008 09:04:04 AM)0 Comments
You've had an epiphany before right? That sudden click in your brain that makes sense out of something.
Since being in addiction recovery I have had several epiphanies. Sure, they're not...more
clean an sober nana of 3
(by maggiemay03 on May-3-2008 05:24:03 PM)0 Comments
My name is MaggieC an I am from a small town in Maine. I have been clean an sober almost 3yrs now taking one day at a time an working my program the best that I can thanks...more
Peace Of Mind Will Get You Through
(by WhatWinnersDo on May-2-2008 08:12:02 AM)1 Comments
I feel that one of my main goals in life is to shoot for as much peace of mind as possible. I really feel that this is what it's all about....more
Yucca Mountain
(by Chris on May-1-2008 11:02:01 PM)1 Comments
My dad is a scientist, a project manager at Yucca Mountain. It is his job to bury stuff forever; to insure it never sees the light of day and that it can never be pulled out and used to harm...more
Detox.
(by thejunkyswife on April-29-2008 02:26:29 PM)4 Comments
I've written a bit (http://www.thejunkyswife.com/2008/04/blues.html) about our impending separation on my blog, but I'm not getting into the details yet to protect my husband's anonymity unt...more
I guess you don't understand.
(by Chris on April-28-2008 11:32:28 PM)2 Comments
"It's different for me. I'm not really an addict/alcoholic. I'm not like those people at all. I'm just having some problems."
How many times have I said that? Said that and believed i...more
"I've Got To Change Everything."
(by thejunkyswife on April-28-2008 11:25:28 AM)0 Comments
My husband came home from a weekend away working yesterday with a mouthful of thoughts and fears and projections. It was interesting listening to him monologue about his realizations about h...more
Fear And Frustration.
(by thejunkyswife on April-25-2008 02:48:25 PM)3 Comments
I'm struggling today. I've been struggling for a while with getting enough sleep. Like many heroin addicts in early recovery, my husband has terrible sleep habits. Also like many addicts, he...more
Eckhart Tolle On Resentment
(by thejunkyswife on April-24-2008 03:06:24 PM)3 Comments
"Resentment is the emotion that goes with complaining and the mental labeling of people and adds even more energy to the ego. Resentment means to feel bitter, indignant, aggrieved, or offend...more
When he is good...
(by thejunkyswife on April-24-2008 01:15:24 PM)1 Comments
When he is good, he is very, very good,
and when he is bad, he is horrid.
When my husband isn't driving me crazy...when he's not the worst thing ever in the history of people...he is the...more
My 2nd Book: Ashley Terrace Murder
(by ccwriter on March-10-2008 11:21:10 AM)0 Comments
I have written a new book about how close I came to making a crazy decision. It is a pure fiction story. A murder has taken place in a condo on the rich side of town. Not unusual, right.... ...more
I'm new here
(by JFord3 on February-25-2008 11:06:25 AM)2 Comments
I'm JFord3 and I'm new on this site. I live in the Chicago area and heard about your site on Rick Kogan's show. I don't have much recovery time, but I want to use anything and everything t...more
The next 30 minutes
(by Jinx on February-13-2008 01:59:13 PM)0 Comments
Hey Thumb,
Just get through the next half hour. That's all you have to do. Right now where I am it's 3:00 p.m. I can do anything for 30 minutes (well not ANYTHING, but a lot of things). ...more
The Committee In My Head
(by Jinx on February-13-2008 01:56:13 PM)0 Comments
If I let it, the committee in my head will run me over without even blinking. How can I rest my mind, let it take some time off? Just give it a blank page for a little while. Too much stu...more
I commit to........
(by thumb on February-12-2008 04:38:12 PM)0 Comments
I committed to getting home this week without stopping for the half pint. I cannot commit to anything while I am still drinking. As soon as I committed to that, I thought about when does thi...more
One day at a time
(by thumb on February-12-2008 04:18:12 PM)0 Comments
Today is 2/12/08. I have not made the one day. I think an AA meeting will help me. However, I never think I need to do this untill I have a drink. When I was going to AA meetings I saw peopl...more
Smokin'
(by Jinx on January-29-2008 02:32:29 PM)0 Comments
I've got a really bad sinus infection and even though I don't want to take any alcohol or drugs, I still want a cigarette. Cigarettes seem harder to come off of that any other substance - o...more
Hello
(by thumb on January-28-2008 06:18:28 PM)0 Comments
Are these postings public? Even you cannot give me advice, at least let me know that someone is reading them. I drank the same amount today as I have drank on other days. So, I did not make...more
Habit
(by thumb on January-28-2008 04:41:28 PM)0 Comments
I leave work and stop by the store and buy a half pint bottle of vodka. I drink it there ( one large drink) without a chaser and then drive home. I drink 2-3 bottles of beer at home. Then I...more
AA
(by thumb on January-28-2008 04:29:28 PM)3 Comments
1/28/08 How do I find an AA sight in Chicago or its suburbs?...more
Still trying
(by thumb on January-28-2008 02:15:28 PM)0 Comments
1/28/08; I still have not stop. So far today I have drank less. 2:14pm...more
Trying to find day one
(by thumb on January-27-2008 05:06:27 PM)0 Comments
1/27/08 I have not stopped drinking....more
Today is my anniversary
(by Jinx on January-29-2008 02:29:29 PM)0 Comments
I feel calm, serene, supremely grateful to God and my sponsor and the people who have been there for me, listened to me - even for the people who have judged me along the way. It's all part...more
Sometimes mediocre is the best I can do
(by Jinx on January-4-2008 08:17:04 AM)0 Comments
It's been rough the last couple weeks - you know - Christmas and all. I got pissed off at family, only got one Christmas present and spent a major portion of the holidays on the pity pot. ...more
A Page from my book...Black Family Lies
(by ccwriter on December-28-2007 10:10:28 AM)0 Comments
The babysitter was a nice lady, but she had two problems—she smoked a lot and she played BINGO. The only reason BINGO was a problem was that she would leave us with her teenage grand...more
Hope keeps me save
(by Jinx on December-6-2007 06:51:06 AM)0 Comments
I went to a church service last for Advent. At the beginning of the service we lit the Advent candle we prayed a prayer, where one of the lines read "I will like candles of hope where despa...more
Introduction
(by Ginger on December-5-2007 03:33:05 PM)0 Comments
Today feels pretty good. Played tennis yesterday and noticed how much easier I am breathing for the first time. Went to the steamroom after gym last night, eucalyptus infused steam, felt l...more
Nov. 30,2007
(by Jinx on November-30-2007 01:34:30 PM)0 Comments
Today is a beautiful day. Much to be grateful for. I've almost forgotten what it's like to wake up with a hangover, or to watch my body go through the torment of coming off uppers. It's g...more
10/29/07
(by janesmith on October-29-2007 02:59:29 PM)0 Comments
Today was the first day I followed my resolution to get in shape physically. I started walking for an hour a day. Going to start running in a week. I’m an addict—don’t expect me to wai...more
dating
(by janesmith on October-15-2007 03:42:15 PM)0 Comments
Today I went on a date for the first time since I got sober. Aaaaah! I don’t like dating. Scares the crap out of me. I feel like I can’t talk. Guess that’s residual from not having any...more
working
(by janesmith on October-22-2007 01:40:22 PM)0 Comments
Today I’m going to therapy and two meetings because I feel crappy. Somehow, that seems to shake me out of it. I like to work on myself. Feel better about my progress afterwards....more
Work, work, work
(by dragon on October-23-2007 03:37:23 PM)0 Comments
Funny how some people take "said" things the wrong way at work. You might reflect on the phrasing of a comment carefully (before you say it), but then, after it is said, it is perceived as s...more
Tyrantasaurous
(by dragon on October-23-2007 11:58:23 AM)0 Comments
This entry will be a test to see whether or not I would be able to really be honest in my thoughts and comments...publicly or not. "Strategery" takes talent....more
Limerick Hill
(by dragon on October-23-2007 04:27:23 PM)0 Comments
A long winding road, lined with dark shadows, forests filled with strange animal cries... trying to come to grips with such a difficult reality....more